And now it's hard to not go topless

What a week. Not this week, though that's shaping up to be quite interesting. But I spent last week in the company of nifty people, enjoying wonderful scenery and each other. Best holiday I've had in a long time.

Rather than go through the week in detail, I'm going to jot down my general impressions. For me the main theme of the week was pushing boundaries - it bears mentioning (because I can scarcely believe it) that my Lady and I have only known each other little more than a month before taking this trip together. I'm scared with just how fast things have become natural with her. At the same time, it's an amazing feeling, being with someone who just 'gets' you, not having to explain the way you think, what thought processes are going on, or how particular ideas are arrived at.

With that in mind, I'd never before done many of the things I did last week. Even walking around topless was a stretch for me, but one I very much enjoyed. At first, it was a sop to sensibility - after carting things up the hill to our holiday abode I was so hot it made for a good excuse. More than that though, the feeling of doing something I wouldn't otherwise... it was definately intoxicating.

That led to doing other things, some which make sense as boundaries - scening in front of others for instance. I never was entirely comfortable with having an audience, but being able to do it is an incredible feeling. Other boundaries were less obvious - being able to talk completely open and honest to my Lady, without self-censoring or being guarded about what I say is still something that's new to me. Scary, and good all bundled up into one.

Kink wise, I loved the electricity play. I'd tried a violet wand before, but never more than a sample, and my Lady made sure I got a full taste. The tens machine was a great new experience, and I ended up with not one but three of them strapped to me. I'm still smiling at that memory.

Really though, I think the biggest scene was one that lasted the entire week. I was my Lady's submissive. I got to fully involve myself in that role, and live in the sub-space of being hers. I think that was what enabled me to push so many boundaries... while I was being a companion, I wasn't spending the mental reserves I usually do to hold my head above water socially. And then I discovered that I don't have to, and I can float perfectly well.

An excellent holiday.